i’m on sound for my school's upcoming musical. our final rehearsal is tomorrow.
this is my first time doing backstage. I signed up because my friends are great actors/dancers and i wanted to support them.
everyone wants me on sound because i’m the ‘tech guy’. i don't know how any of the A/V tech at my school works beyond setting the volume and working the computer. i haven't had time to rehearse half the songs (there's lots of cues, vamps, and other timing things i need to ace) and i feel like the whole world is resting on my shoulders.
if the person on lights messes up, no big deal, the show goes on. if someone moving props messed up, the show goes on. if someone on the ensemble messes up, the show goes on. hell, if the lead messes up, they improv and the show goes on.
but if i mess up, then everything falls apart, nothing works. the music and backing tracks lead the whole thing. i literally have the highest stakes role in the ENTIRE production, and i’m fairly confident that's not hyperbole.
the cast has been practicing for MONTHS for this moment. i’ve been assigned sound for like 2 weeks, tops and i feel like i'm not up for the responsibility.
everyone's depending on me. the amount of pressure on me is insane. yesterday i was getting yelled at from 3 directions for many hours and i honestly just can't with this level of stress. i’ve tried expressing this to others but everyone just says “you'll do great”.
everyone i know is coming to watch one of the 3 performances. i’m scared.
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You’re building this up way too much. It’s a school musical. No one is expecting perfection, especially not from the guy who’s never done this before and was brought on late into preparation.
You should strive to put on the best production you can. That’s how you expand your limits and grow. But you shouldn’t place this much pressure on yourself about it. Even if the production falls apart, life still goes on.
Further, if sound screws up, the show still goes on as much as if the lights or the lead were to screw up. The actors will project their voices and know the songs well enough to keep the show rolling. And, should there be any mishap, I’m sure the production manager (or someone else who knows what they’re doing) will be back there to assist you shortly.
You’re a smart guy. I’m sure you’re already building systems in your head to keep all the queues straight and little efficiencies to make adjustments quickly and all that. You’re probably also building backup plans for any kind of err you might run into. You are doing more than enough, and the production is lucky to have you.
Keep your head up. Have fun with it. No one will fault you should something happen, and the show will go on no matter what.
You’ll do great!
thank you!! I'm feeling much better about this :)
