Actually, now that I think about it, it's actually starting to hit me. @ratio is gone. Dead. Won't be coming back. That's fucking crazy and scary to think about. I've lost several family members in my life and a personal friend due to suicide, and it's just.. it's still hard for me to wrap my head around. I barely knew ratio but it is still shocking that they, a member of this community, won't ever come back. That one person I reminded vigorously to change their pfp after they hit a like goal like they promised? Gone. How does that even happen?? I obviously know how it happens, but I think it's more shocking to me because it was them who took their life. If it's hitting me this hard, then I can't imagine how Skylar herself is feeling I guess the reason the previous deaths in my life, including my friend's suicide, didn't hit me this hard is because I was still really young, and I guess it's all hitting me at once now that I'm thinking about it

Sorry, I just had to put my random ass thoughts on paper, or in this case a publicly accessible social media. This post has no direct message and probably doesn't make sense to most because I was typing this as I thought, but I just had to put this somewhere