thank you for the comments i appreciate them

my next goal is to actually get irl friends but im cooked for a bunch of reasons:

• i only have like two interests which not many people i know care about

• i barely know how to talk to people and im scared of doing that

• i hate people my age and avoid them in public

• everyone in my school already has friends and none of them really want to be around me

• im scared to join clubs and there wouldnt be any i enjoy anyway

• im scared to try new things

• i havent had any real friends since 2020

• ive already lost all my friends twice in my life