sometimes i feel like i dont deserve to be happy but i know it actually makes people rly sad when im sad so i just try to pretend everything is ok and i smile and do my best to be the person everyone likes and i know ppl appreciate it and everything but still i keep getting sad which i feel like is like kinda selfish but idk how to stop it so i just keep going like this and i pretend i havent cried myself to sleep some nights which i wish i could tell someone about but i feel like if people knew they would worry too much