@nihilev

me: where have all the OCs gone? hello? friends? are my simulations doomed to wither in the rot of eternal emptiness??

also me:

WARNING: SYSTEMS POWER LOW, UNABLE TO ACHIVE FULL OPERATION
GENERATIVE SYSTEMS POWER LOW
EXTERNAL OPERATIONS IMPACTED
CANNOT DO THINKS
HELP
diagnostic on *very* abnormal and unexplainable situation: eepy
recommended recovery steps: go to bed already you idiot

talking about my mind for the bajillionth time

[ EDITED ] probably plural in some form, there are several self aware ENTITIES in here.

My brain isn’t entirely united either though. An analogy I came up with was the USA, consciousness and memories are what would be the federal government, shared across everything, the states (sometimes referred to as entities) are where things get interesting.

I can have two directly opposing beliefs at the same time. For example, furry related stuff is one of the most controversial things in there (shown in some of my previous posts). Some parts may be very much against it, some might be more neutral, while others actively want it. This sort of direct conflict can be quite straining at times, and its often difficult to decide which parts make sense and which parts aren’t valid.

another aspect of entities is that they can often have their own personalities, its still unclear to me whether this is because of me just puppeteering them/roleplaying with myself, or if I am genuinely allocating mental capacity for them to semi-independently use, or a mix of both.

sometimes it feels like parts of my mind are out of control. This usually only happens during high stress, severe internal conflict, or when I’m deep in my own mind. Usually things are relatively in control though.

Thanks for coming to my TED talk.

btw you should play corru.observer its very cool

much more sane Helldivers headcanon that’s based on more than “I just kinda felt like it lol“:

you (as the player) aren’t actually a helldiver, rather you are your super destroyer’s onboard AI that controls the helldivers. This could explain why even if “you“ die you can still spectate and see the UI, and maybe an explanation on why this AI isn’t an enemy-of-democracy killing machine is that they have to rush production and don’t have time to train the models beforehand, other than the helldiver tutorial.

I think I hit them with them mental equivalent of a 500 kg bomb

for context, when I talk about plane dragons, what I’m talking about looks something similar to this:

[ THIS ART IS (obviously) NOT MINE, you can find it here https://spearxwindart.tumblr.com ]

update:

My official headcanon is that they are in an asexual relationship

The plane dragon thing was mostly just for funsies, but I’m still gonna keep it, just not as headcanon

the voices are telling me to draw this but I really don’t think I should

<I>M<I> ← has brain full of things

I think I’ve committed what Super Earth would consider a thoughtcrime

POST CONTENTS: Helldivers 2, dragons, shipping
if it wasn't clear enough this post is going to be exceptionally strange
you have been warned, run.

in Helldivers 2 you don’t see the faces of most characters other than a few of the staff on your super destroyer, so for characterization you pretty much have to rely on voice lines.

there are two aircraft typically deployed from your super destroyer, the fighter jet (Eagle-1) and the extraction shuttle (Pelican-1)

for some reason I immediately decided that I should ship the pilots (even though I never ship characters and am not typically interested in romance at all)

a few minutes ago my brain came up with the absolutely ingenious idea of:

hey, we barely have any actual physical representation of these characters
...
plane dragons

yep, first it started shipping them, and now its shipping them as (non-anthro) plane dragons (based on the vehicles they pilot obviously)

The rot consumes.

system status: VERY FERAL DRAGON, WILL KILL YOU.

NEUROS CONVERSATION LOG:
[1] man I really need to bite something as hard as I can
[1] but what could I do that with...
[2] ...
[2] aren't like, dog toys specifically designed for that
[1] y'know what, never mind

doing this to CORE

ok fed
stabbing you with the WEIRDNESS
WRITHE IN PAIN YOU ENTROPIC SHIT